Tuesday, May 30, 2006

"look and think"

click the images for greater detail. like always.


nearing the entrance to the museum. all of the statues on the grounds are from the original museum grounds, completely refurbished. the glass area at the top of the tower is the viewing floor. you get a 360-degree view of the city from up there.




another of the original statues. behind this statue of robert emmet is the latest construction project, the rebuilding of the steinhart aquarium/academy of sciences. the oldest section of the original aquarium is being saved. the rest will be all-new, like the de young. this is directly across from the museum. behind the statue is one massive crane, which we watched hoisting massive steel beams through the air. behind the crane is sutro tower.


the head of delilah. she is of the smoothest, most luscious-looking marble.


my cappucino, which i enjoyed outdoors in the springtime sun.


the tower of the de young museum, seen from the bandshell area. it is made of textured copper.

burroughs



a photo of a portrait of william burroughs.
taken at the de young last week.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

my side trip







after visiting with my aunt nancy on tuesday, i stayed the night at my dad's.
the next morning, we enjoyed a delicious fruit compote together, and had a nice visit. (i love fresh figs!)

i couldn't possibly leave san francisco without seeing my aiko brother. i cruised out fulton st., through the panhandle of golden gate park. he lives just blocks from that famed landmark. after arriving, he wasted no time in telling me that i simply HAD to see the all-new de young museum. he's been raving about it since the grand opening, and has been there numerous times, since he and his family are members there.

why on earth would i pass up such a glorious opportunity? i felt that it would balance out the sorrow in my heart and soul, and was not disappointed.
my bro took at least a hundred photos. floor after floor of breathtaking sights. i have countless memories of that museum,as i had been to the previous incarnation of the de young many times while growing up. seeing the same art you viewed as a child is fascinating. in the same way that music from days gone by has new, unique meaning in the here-and-now.

about the pictures... this was a new installation. my friend had not yet seen it.
it consists of hundreds of charred boards of every shape and dimension. there are also charred nails in each of them. the boards are from a black southern baptist church which burned to the ground. it was the work of arsonists. the artist, whose name i am not savvy enough to be able to tell you, acquired the timbers. she connected the pieces with fishing lines by tying it to the nail heads. it is suspended from about 20 feet, and fits together, in an eerily random way. we learned that the artist wanted to create a piece that pulled the building back together, since it had been a place of such joy for so many.

this one really got to me. life, death, and rebirth.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

today in history


today is bob dylan's 65th birthday.
it's also the day that my most-remarkable aunt passed away.
...a beautiful day to be born, or die.

"life is sad, life is a bust. all you can do is do what you must"

Monday, May 22, 2006

love and death



life's been a real hoot, here at the shack. there were some technical difficulties with our dsl provider. hence my invisibility lately. that and the business of life, in all it's wacky weirdness. the good news? today is my blog-iversary. i thought it would be good to recollect why it was i decided to start doing this strange thing i do, with a certain degree of regularity. why indeed.

it's a place to vent and rant and yes, even curse. more than that, i started doing this because i felt such hopelessness about what has been heaped upon us all. i wanted to reach out there, and find hope in the fact that maybe there were others, who might be looking for something similar. there were. it has eased my worried mind immensely, to find that i am not alone in all of this.

even though it all keeps getting stranger, i am thankful that there are a few fellow bloggers to share thoughts, ideas, and general disdain with. thanks for inspiring me to carry on. ("love is coming to us all")

now the bad news. back in december, i wrote about my favorite aunt, who has been dealing with lou gehrig's disease, or a.l.s. it's been awful for her, and for my awesome uncle. she is in the hospital, and they are saying she might live another day or so. i am planning to drive down to san francisco tomorrow, to say good-bye.
i will go into great detail about this woman, and all the ways she made my life complete. but not right now. for now, here's an old photo that has seen better days, i'm afraid. sorry about that. it was taken during the summer of 1966, at lake tahoe. the whole family stayed at this place on the lake. here is my aunt, reading. (looks like the new yorker) those are my grandfather's feet, in the topsiders. this same summer, my little brother almost drowned, and a kid of some family friends got a fish hook stuck in his eye lid. two powerful memories, still vivid 40 years later.

so... there will be more photos, and more words about her as well. later.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

avoidance and apathy



today was an eye-opener. once again i realized how many people STILL can't admit we've been bullshitted from day one by this administration. it's sad, when these realizations involve people you know and respect. in the workplace, for example. it felt frustrating, maddening, and left me with that too-familiar hopeless feeling. the weird thing is that this place i call my home is considered to be one of the most liberal, open places in the country. this helps me to comprehend just how and why we are in such trouble. yikes.

a question. is it wrong to have serious doubts as to whether the newly-released photos of the pentagon are authentic? and if they are truly authentic, is that all there is, in terms of their quality/sharpness? i mean, this is the pentagon, right? there are no better security cameras than this? i am not exactly thrilled that my government has lied to me, over and over. it feels awful, knowing this. why are there some who refuse to see what has occurred? is it because the awful truth hurts too much, so they shut it out?

i sort of envy these people.

Monday, May 15, 2006

"i peaked at the greek"


~click me~
grateful dead at the greek theatre, u.c. berkeley. september of 1981. a friday evening.

an old friend of mine worked for the litho company that published this photo. i found it in a box the other day.

i never lose sight of how lucky i was to experience the times i did, seeing this band. especially at the greek.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

"nobody treats you like a mother will..."

these are not in chronological order. just a few random memories, on this mother's day.



my mother in 1975 or so. not the greatest copy, due to the shine. but i love it, just the same. my strongest memory of her, even after living without her for 25 years, is her smiling face. that smile made it all okay. i miss it (and her) every day.


an early picture, before her move to san francisco from the midwest.


my father kissing my mother's neck at a cocktail party. she looks happy. it's nice to have photographic proof that there was a time when one's parents were happy, and in love.


me with mom at aquatic park, san francisco. my parents were part of a group of friends with children that would congregate there on nice weekend days. i have some great memories of body surfing at this beach.


this one is me, as an almost-mother. i was 8 months pregnant with my first child. my mom died four months before this was taken. and then there was brand-new life, after such a loss. life sure is funny, isn't it?



Motherless Children
Eric Clapton


Motherless children have a hard time when mother is dead, lord.
Motherless children have a hard time when mother is dead, lord.
They don't have anywhere to go;
Wandering around from door to door.
Nobody treats you like a mother will when your mother is dead, lord.

Father will do the best he can when your mother is dead, lord.
Father will do the best he can when your mother is dead, lord.
Father will do the best he can;
So many things a father can't understand.
Nobody treats you like a mother will when your mother is dead, lord.

Sister will do the best she can when your mother is dead, lord.
Sister will do the best she can when your mother is dead, lord.
Sister will do the best she can;
So many things a sister can't understand.
Nobody treats you like a mother will when your mother is dead.

When your mother is dead, when your mother is dead.
When your mother is dead, Lord, when your mother is dead.

Friday, May 12, 2006

friday cat blogging



sunny scales the gate.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

little green


fern fronds here at the shack/click to enlarge it!

their color made me think of this song, a favorite...

Born with the moon in cancer
Choose her a name she will answer to
Call her green and the winters cannot fade her
Call her green for the children who’ve made her
Little green, be a gypsy dancer

He went to california
Hearing that everything’s warmer there
So you write him a letter and say, her eyes are blue.
He sends you a poem and she’s lost to you
Little green, he’s a non-conformer

Ch0rus:

Just a little green
Like the color when the spring is born
There’ll be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow
Just a little green
Like the nights when the northern lights perform
There’ll be icicles and birthday clothes
And sometimes there’ll be sorrow

Child with a child pretending
Weary of lies you are sending home
So you sign all the papers in the family name
You’re sad and you’re sorry, but you’re not ashamed
Little green, have a happy ending

Chorus:

Just a little green
Like the color when the spring is born
There’ll be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow
Just a little green
Like the nights when the northern lights perform
There’ll be icicles and birthday clothes
And sometimes there’ll be sorrow

joni mitchell

Monday, May 08, 2006

certified











i drove down the coast yesterday, to meet-up with my older daughter. we had lunch together, after she finished diving.
one of her classes at the university this semester is scuba certification!
yesterday was the final dive, and she passed. the weather was sunny, with plenty of wind. luckily, they dove in a cove, but it was still quite challenging, with choppy water and jagged rocks all around. this young woman has always been fearless and confident. i knew it the moment i laid eyes on her. she had a look like "ok,cool... now what?!"

in more banal news, my beast, the volvo died last night, and i am home for half a day today. i just got the diagnosis. alternator AND battery, both shot. i could be sad, but am actually quite pleased that it did not decide to die on my road trip down highway one yesterday. that was a 100-mile trip. that's why i love my old car.
even when it breaks down, it's fair about it.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

prelude to mother's day, part 2


fast forward, far from appleton. this was taken in 1957 in san francisco. that's me, with mom and dad. my mother moved to the city with two of her sisters in '56. she met my dad almost immediately. i think it was pretty much a whirlwind romance. i have other(really fun) photos of them before my birth, but have not yet found the box they are stored away in.


my mom and me in 1958. she looks wistful. and thin.


at work in the 60's. she worked for marathon/american can company for much of her adult life. she was home with my little brother and i initially, returning to work when my father went back to school to get his masters. my mom was a working mother when many were not. her smile reminds me so much of my older daughter's smile. i love that. note: typewriter, adding machine, and telephone. different times.

~click photos to enlarge them~

Saturday, May 06, 2006

huachinango a la veracruzana




while enjoying my brief moments of mental health yesterday, i remembered a recipe i used to make quite often, during the "tahoe years" i am pretty sure that it originated with my pal from those days, who now lives near seattle. we shared lots of good cooking together. almost everything we cooked was mexican food.


this one was a favorite, and i still love it, though i have not made it much lately. i was twenty,in the summer of 1977. the summer that elvis died. at that time, i shared a place with a couple of guys that worked a lot. this was in homewood, california- on the western shore of lake tahoe. in the winter, we worked at the ski area there. in fact, this house was located near the base of the chair lift.

i paid low rent while i lived there, because part of the deal was that i would cook healthful meals for these dudes when they were around.(i guess that i was channeling donna reed, even then.) they were not around terribly often, so it was a pretty sweet situation, overall. until one night, when i got home late from my restaurant job, and climbed into my bed. one of the roommates called to be from his room, inviting me (quite brazenly) to hop into his bed with him. i declined, and felt really odd living there, after that. about a month later, i stored all my stuff and left for alberta, canada. but that's another tale.

funny, how remembering something like a recipe can make a person think of long-past circumstances, and long-vanished people.


RED SNAPPER VERACRUZANA

tomato sauce:
3/4 cup olive oil
7 garlic cloves, divided
2 cups finely chopped white onion
2 1/4 pounds tomatoes, finely chopped
3/4 cup pimento-stuffed green olives, finely chopped
1/4 cup capers
6 fresh bay leaves or 3 dried
1 1/2 teaspoons crushed dried oregano
2 sprigs each: fresh thyme and marjoram, or 1 teaspoon each dried
Salt to taste
1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
4 ounces chilies gueros (from an 8-ounce can)
MARINADE:
3 tablespoons fresh lime juice
3 garlic cloves
2 dried bay leaves
1 1/2 teaspoons dried crushed oregano
3/4 cup olive oil or less as desired
Salt and pepper to taste
4 (6-ounce) red snapper fillets

PREPARE SAUCE:
Heat oil in saucepan. Brown 3 garlic cloves and discard. Mince remaining garlic. Brown garlic and onion in oil. Add tomatoes, olives, capers, bay leaves, oregano, thyme, marjoram, salt, pepper and chilies. Simmer 2 1/2 hours, stirring occasionally. Sauce will be thick. Remove from heat and set aside. Use as directed.

MEANWHILE, PREPARE MARINADE:
In blender or food processor, blend lime juice, garlic, bay leaves, oregano, oil, salt and pepper to make a marinade. Place fish in large baking dish and pour marinade over it. Cover and marinate about 1 hour in the refrigerator.

BAKE FISH:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Remove fillets from marinade and place in another large baking dish.

Bake until fish is done, about 15 minutes, basting with some of the tomato sauce occasionally. Do not overcook.

TO SERVE:
Place fillets on a platter and cover with remaining sauce, which has been warmed. Any extra sauce can be served on the side, accompanied with rice.

Makes 4 servings

Friday, May 05, 2006

mental health day



a much-needed day away from work today. exhaling....

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

sunny on the keys



yes, he's a strange boy.

Monday, May 01, 2006

receta lunes

i missed recipe saturday, so here's one for today.
this day should be very interesting, when white people realize just how many jobs the brown people do, that make our lives better.

viva mexico.


GARDEN VEGETABLE ENCHILADAS

4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) butter
3 cups coarsely chopped zucchini and/or yellow crookneck squash
1 cup chopped onion
1 1/2 cups fresh corn kernels or frozen, thawed
1 4-ounce can diced mild green chilies
1/2 cup chopped fresh cilantro
3 tablespoons chili powder
2 tablespoons all purpose flour
1 1/2 teaspoons ground cumin
2 1/2 cups whole milk
2 cups (packed) grated Monterey Jack and/or sharp cheddar cheese (about 8 ounces)

8 8-inch warm flour tortillas

Preheat oven to 350°F. Melt 1 tablespoon butter in heavy large skillet over medium-high heat. Add zucchini and onion and sauté until vegetables are just tender, about 4 minutes. Mix in 1 cup corn, canned chilies and 1/4 cup cilantro; season filling with salt and pepper.

Melt 3 tablespoons butter in heavy medium saucepan over medium-high heat. Whisk in chili powder, flour and cumin; stir 30 seconds. Gradually whisk in milk. Cook until sauce is thick and bubbling, whisking occasionally, about 5 minutes. Add 1 1/2 cups cheese; whisk until smooth. Season with salt and pepper.

Spread 1/4 cup sauce in bottom of 13 x 9 x 2-inch glass baking dish. Mix 3/4 cup sauce into filling. Place generous 1/3 cup filling in center of 1 tortilla; roll up to enclose filling. Place enchilada in baking dish. Repeat with remaining tortillas and filling. Cover enchiladas with remaining sauce, then sprinkle with remaining 1/2 cup corn and 1/2 cup cheese.

Bake vegetable enchiladas until heated through, about 45 minutes. Sprinkle with 1/4 cup cilantro and serve.

Makes 8.