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Circuit overload. That's what it feels like. The wiring is slowly smoldering, shorting out my world- weary synapses.

People are really going to vote for someone that resembles that church lady you don't answer the door for? The one that sees church in your future? Now I have really seen everything. But wait, there's more! As a special bonus, you get a mean old man too.

Financial collapse is always a great sign. My man and I have little left to lose in that regard.Still-it can't be good.

I've been realizing even more how divided 'we' Americans are. Now. Everyone is shouting at once and we don't hear each other. It's pathetic. Thanks, Mr. 'Uniter'.

Parents are aging rapidly. It's that time, I suppose. I can't say I am ready for it, but life can be funny like that. I have noted recently that death is a somewhat comfier concept after hitting 50. I spent most of the first half of my life in bliss-ninny denial about mortality. Especially after losing my mother when I was 24. She's been in my thoughts, since her birthday is the first day of autumn.

I fear for my children.The rules have changed, and nothing is certain. Was it ever? They are brave and smart. Good thing.

Blogging is futile, but I can't seem to quit. I started it to be able to vent. I love to vent. However, I hold back more than I want to, like a good recovering catholic girl would. I'm working on that.

MillionDoorsForPeace.org

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my thoughts exactly

today's news from london is devastating. this is one of three vacation days for me this week. so i awoke refreshed and ready to enjoy my day of freedom-from-the-workplace. then i heard the news. my heart sunk. i began to read accounts of the attack online, as well as a few blogs which were discussing it. the link above takes you to one person's viewpoint and thoughts about this latest attack. i was struck by her words. i have seen varying viewpoints as well, and to me, there are still so many people with such powerful systems of denial about all of this. granted, i am to the left of many people. but still. what will it take for people to admit that bush and company have turned this world into a much darker, scarier place, and that every time there is another attack, and much of the population is more fearful, their agenda is furthered? why? because fearful, vulnerable citizens are willing to allow their government to do all of the thinking for them. why do so few people connect the dots?
because it is too frightening for the average person to believe that they have been lied to and placed in great danger by the very leaders that they voted for.
do people really believe that this latest attack has nothing to do with the havoc bush has wreaked upon various far-off lands? they believe in him. still. it is realizations like this that make me lose hope in my fellow man. so, i will head out into the sunshine and walk to the ocean. nothing else makes much sense right now, so i will just allow nature to feed my sorrowful soul. peace... and i really mean that.