Friday, September 25, 2015

Please Stand By

That sums it up. So many things going on out there that are worth posting about. I just can't seem to say much here anymore. I've noticed that for me, being quieter in general isn't a bad thing. I come from a long line of talkers and this is new territory. I like it. But I'm still "here."

Monday, March 16, 2015

And Know They Love You...

  My youngest child (She is 22) has been with us since the end of last September. We have strengthened the mother/child bond during this time and I feel that our relationship has grown in so many ways. Things got pretty weird between us during her high school years, so this has been a crucial step in our relationship. She returns to Northern California, a job, and a place of her very own in a little over a week. It will be hard saying goodbye, but the truth is that she misses her best friend (Since the 5th grade in Mendocino) and having more of a social life. Life out here in the sticks is not always easy or convenient, but she really has managed it quite well. She found a job early-on, no easy task for newbies here. And she has made friends and had some fun times and learned a lot about life and herself, I think. This place tends to do that. We will send her off stronger and wiser and I know that her time in Hawaii will stay with her wherever she goes. And it's always her home, whenever she wants it to be.

Her older sister was here for 2 weeks last month, and brought along her boyfriend, whom we all adore. I happened to introduce them during my last visit to the mainland. This young man has a connection to the islands too, since his parents were raised on Oahu. The couple plans to make their move to the Big Island in no more than 2 years. The mere thought of it makes my heart sing. This daughter will soon  be moving away from San Francisco, where she has resided for the last 7 years, to a beautiful locale where I lived with her father in the early days of our relationship. That will be good practice for her future life here as it is fairly remote. Yet just an hour from Santa Cruz.

My son had a harsh year after a particularly tough breakup. Most everyone has had at least one of those. It's been painful to watch, but he is strong and wise. He stayed with us for 6 weeks last summer and found some comfort and closure here before returning to his life in California. He has moved forward and I can exhale again. There are few things as painful as watching your beloved children suffer the indignities of life. Sadly, they must.

Laupahoehoe Point

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Ten Things

1. I'm still very much alive and well.
2. This blog is not abandoned, nor will it be. Ten years this year, same url, same title. But a very different woman than I was a decade ago.
3. I've grown extremely comfortable with being more of an observer than a participant. In real life and in cyberspace.
4. Moving to the Big Island is the smartest thing I've done. So far.
5. The world at large is one supreme joke, and my opinions and wrist-wringing won't change a thing.
6. Most of my contemporaries during my years as a young adult turned out to be racists. Or exceedingly closed-minded at the very least. This realization continues to unnerve me.
7. My children are still the one thing in my life that I am proud about. Otherwise, pride seems more burdensome than anything else.
8. Groups of women scare me, still. Women are mean-something else I never realized for most of my years. Always thought men were the worst that way, but cruel females are just more covert about it.
9. We planted turmeric in our lower field last week and are excited about growing more and more stuff.
10. Love is the answer.

Photo of Sunnyhill in Mendocino. Otherwise known as the Cozy Shack and where I lived when I began blogging in May of 2005.